Self Induced Solitude

I am all alone
With no one to talk to
With no one to laugh with
With no one to share my life

Yes I am a poet
And these words
are my emotions
But these lines
will never
ever
be enough
to express my solitude

I am all alone now
I have pushed people away

Gone were the days
when I can talk to anyone
when I can look at a friend's eyes
without the feeling
of being avoided

I have isolated myself
by falling in love
with my closest friends

My happiest memories
were my biggest mistakes

But was I selfish
when I thought
that I could make them happy
when I believed
that I could be the best man
that will ever hold their hand

Was I a fool
when I thought that our love
would endure all hardships

Was I stupid
when I fell in love
with my best pals

Was I blind
to not see
that a love
that began from friendship
would be the end
of that friendship itself

Now
I live in seclusion

with these words

as my friends


with these lines

as my escape


and this poem



as my tears